Day 30 - A future

Right now the future I picture is one where I'm happy and am either married with kids or just have kids because I don't have a guy in my life (preferably with a guy though). I'm working from home and I'm a not well know writer, but at least my stuff is being published. I live close to the people I love (Cousin and best friends and the part of the family that doesn't annoy me). I won't be the pathetic game winner, instead I'll be a loser (which is a good thing, because it isn't a prize to win the pathetic game). This is the future I see at the moment, but I'm sure it will change with time.

Day 29 - A place that gives you wonderlust

That would have be the United Kingdom in general. I can't pick one particular spot, but I can guarantee that if I ever end up in the UK, I will be going everywhere. And I might possibly be staying.

I really want to make this trip with my cousin (only problem is we both hate long travels, but you can't blame us with the family we have). We want to go to Wales and see where Torchwood and Doctor Who were filmed in Cardiff. I want to see Scotland and England and Northern Ireland. I want to walk around with my fake English accent (it is beginning to sound more Scottish now because I've been watching Amy Pond way too much on Doctor Who) and make people wonder if I really am American. Doesn't that sound like an awesome trip? (correct response is "TOTALLY AWESOME!!") I might have to buy Starkid sunglasses as well...

Day 28 - A quote

"I've seen fake gods and bad gods and demigods and would-be gods; out of all that, out of that whole pantheon, if I believe in one thing...just one thing...I believe in her." ~The Tenth Doctor speaking about Rose; Doctor Who, The Satan Pit (S2E9).

This is not only one of my favorite quotes from Doctor Who, it is one of my favorite quotes of all time. The passion David Tennant uses while speaking about Rose (while in character of course), is the passion of a man in love. Of course you never see David Tennant's version of the Doctor actually tell Rose that he loves her, but it is implied (why else would he burn up a sun just to say goodbye and why would he give her another version of himself?).

This quote basically proves that it doesn't matter who we believe in, as long as we believe in someone (or in a lot of peoples' cases, something). The Doctor believes in Rose and Rose believes in the Doctor. This quote makes me happy and sad at the same time, but more on that at a later date.

Day 27 - A thing that makes you mad

Flamers on comments. They are just further proof that the general population is stupid. It isn't even as if I say anything that should get a reply with a bunch of cuss words. I really hate when I leave my opinion and someone else has to comment on MY OPINION. I know that it isn't their opinion so why do they have to bash mine? To be totally honest, I hate people in general. It is amazing that I even made friends, because stupidity is annoying.

Day 26 - A thing you want to do before you die

I want to go to the Wizarding World in Orlando, Flordia. I don't really need to go on the rides, but I do want to go to the wand shop and drink butterbeer. Plus there would have to be a trip to Disney World. But seriously, Harry Potter theme park? Heck yeah!

Day 25 - A song

A song would have to be the Darren Criss version of "Somewhere Only We Know." I have listened to it 183 times on iTunes and it was one of the sweetest moments on Glee. I have a soft spot for Blurt (I could never call it Klaine...that just never seemed right and who comes up with those anyway?). Blaine and Kurt are just so cute and when Blaine sings "Somewhere Only We Know" to Kurt, it made my heart melt (and Darren was practically crying for the scene. I was like, "Please don't cry Blaine, please don't cry! You'll make me cry..."). Now you all know how I win the pathetic game. Thanks for playing and see you next time!

Day 24 - A topic that makes you think

Time travel that leads to creating a paradox... Like in the third Harry Potter book with the time-turner or in the sixth Artemis Fowl book with Opal and all of the things that happen in that book (it really is a long story).

The kind of time travel I'm talking about makes your head spin and when you think you've figured it out, you read something that makes you go back to step one. However, I love this kind of thinking. The paradox is complex and I love it for that reason.

Day 23 - A meme

This is just because of my roommate. She doesn't like gingers and the thought of them having weapons really freaks her out, but it makes me giggle. Personally, those are four of my favorite gingers.

Day 22 - A thing you do everyday

Everyday I feed my fish. Exciting, I know. He actually eats his food now (I bought him a different kind and he loves it). Before he would just look at it and play with it, but now he eats it and wants more than I'm supposed to give him. It is kind of funny really. He is such a funny fish, but I love him.

Day 21 - A dream you had recently

Because I have been watching a lot of tv shows lately, most of my dreams seem to be about the shows I've been watching. Most recently I had a dream where I was Amy from Doctor Who and I was running around with The Doctor and Rory (there was an awful lot of running involved...). It ended with Amy/me hugging Rory and The Doctor and calling them my boys (which Amy does quite often in the show). I woke up feeling happy, which is nice and doesn't happen a lot.

Day 20 - A picture of your "Crew"

This picture was taken almost five years ago now (wow...it really doesn't seem like that long ago). It is a picture of me and my two best friends. Starting on the left is Melissa. We have known each other since the end of seventh grade (eight years for those of you who are curious). I'm in the middle and my friend Leia (yes, like Princess Leia from Star Wars) is on the right. I have known Leia since the beginning of eighth grade (almost eight years ago now, it will be eight years in September).

This picture was taken by one of the math teachers at our high school (apparently he is a professional photographer on the side). It was taken at homecoming our junior year. My ex had broken up with me about a month before, but I think that is a story for another time (or maybe never).

Day 19 - A recipe

Here it is from one of my favorite vloggers:

Charlie McDonnell's Secret Family Brownie Recipe (even though it seems pretty standard)

2 oz dark chocolate

6 oz milk chocolate

3/4 cups unsalted butter

2 1/2 cups sugar

2 tsp vanilla

4 eggs

1 cup flour

1 tsp salt

1 cup chocolate chips

Powdered sugar

Preheat ove to 350° F. Melt chocolate and butter, stir until smooth. Add sugar, vanilla, and eggs; mix. Next add salt and flour; mix until smooth then add chocolate chips. Grease pan, place batter in pan, and bake for 25 to 30 minutes. Let cool and top with powdered sugar.

Day 18 - A thing you are afraid of

So, I have normal fears, but there was this dream I had once. I was in a bedroom, lying on the floor and there was a guy sitting cris-cross-applesauce on the bed. I was looking out the window and the two of us were talking about nothing in particular. All of a sudden he asked me, "What are you afraid of?" I have never felt more panicked in my life.

My first thought was, "Losing you," and I knew, deep down, it was the honest truth. I didn't want to lose him, but I didn't tell him that. I'm afraid that I'm going to meet this guy someday and he'll ask me that question and I'll be too afraid to tell him how much he means to me.

Day 17 - A secret

I'm in love with my friend Daniel. I don't know what he would say if he ever found this out, but I've been trying to get over him. He is such a sweet guy, but I don't think things would really work out. I've liked him for so long I don't know how to get over him. I suppose it is good that he won't happen across this blog and if he ever does he won't know I'm talking about him (he wouldn't even know this is my blog). As my roommate would say, "You win at the pathetic contest." I don't try, it just happens.

Day 16 - A picture you took

This is a picture of my puppy sophie when she was still little. She was just so cute (she still is).

Day 15 - A wish

I wish I had a special someone. Not that I need a person to make me happy...I just miss doing couple things. Like kissing and hand-holding. Or watching movies together. Sure I can do that with my friends, but I don't cuddle with my friends. It has been much too long.

Day 14 - A bad habit

Chewing my nails. It isn't as bad as it used to be (I've been trying to break this habit), but when I get nervous or when a finger nail is bothering me, I start biting it. It isn't a good thing and I want my nails to look nice, but that doesn't happen.

Day 12 - A thing that worries you (catch-up)

Something that has had me worried for a while has been my sister. She has been making poor decisions for a year now, and I'm worried that she will become one of those people you see on Judge Judy or Dr. Phill. I wish she would just get rid of the loser boyfriend (my cousin and I call him You-Know-Who and He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named because all he cares about is himself and he doesn't care who he hurts in the process).

Day 11 - An actor

Right now an actor would have to be Arthur Darvill. Even though his character dies in almost every episode of series six (the second episode, the third episode, and the fourth episode of the season), not to mention his character really died in series five and then came back as a plastic Roman soilder (a really long story). Arthur Darvill is one of the reasons I love Doctor Who, even though I want to shout at the tv, "Stop killing Rory!"

Day 10 - An insecurity

That I'm not good enough to write a book and get it published. That I'm not persistent enough, that I'm too cowardly.

Well this was kind of dark and angsty...